Get addicted to certain kind of sadness

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

Theater Field Trip

Hello. The shitty wifi in my rented house is surprisingly fast! So I gonna blog about my theater field trip today! It was the first time in my entire 4 semesters that we have a field trip. We did plan to go for one last sem for CHEM106 but then no one really go and ask for info and stuff so...... nothing happens. I was so looking forward to go visit the beer factory that time. Sad.:( But this time we finally had one! The venue was at The Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre. So we were all squeeze in a bus in order to reach there. We took quite long to reach KL since it was on peak hour. But nevermind. We talk talk talk all the way, took pixies and sipping Chatime. :)

I look retarded here. But nevermind. That's pretty pretty Christine. :)

Christine, May Gee, Vivian. :)

Quite a creepy play. Love the singing part tho. :)

The girls! Christine, Vivian, Zu, Maygee and Erica!

All the classmates and Ms Pat! So sad Mickey not here. :(

Ms Pat treat all of us dinner/supper later on! Thankiu so much :)

Theater class is always fun. Ms Pat is a really good lecturer. She helps us to find our hidden self. She can look into us like a open window. Sometimes I just wonder why. Hahas. We laugh we cry and we scream in class. All sort of things you won't do in a normal class. We are all like a family. It draws us closer to each others, really. Especially for the girls. I know I'm so gonna miss theater class next semester. Let's cherish the one month left with the theater group! :)

Lighted Fool.

2.55am on April Fool.
First of all, sorry that I eat up my promise. I didn't update about my birthday before March end. Ughhh. That's why I don't like to make promise. Cause it feels so awful when you break one. Oh well.

Was just had an extremely busy March. Really. The work load is crazy. Especially the last 2 weeks. Midterm was haunting me. At first it was statistics. The exam was effing tough. Then it was theater monologue midterm. It was ok since mathematics is not involved. Next, goddamn calculus. Well, don't even ask me about this. I will go crazy. Lastly was stupid moral. Did the online test in Temptation, in the middle of chaos and distractions. All these above ALMOST kill me. Close enough.

And I went to this education fair of US university today. And I................ can't breathe. Literally. I feel damn stress. I am doubting myself. I have been doing this very frequently these days. I used to don't really care about what people talk about but now I am like, not really that kind of person anymore. Words hurt me, scare me. I am terrified. How can something I never do I never say is really passing around without me knowing. It was awful. Really. I am so exhausted. I feel like closing down this blog. I was so naive back then. I don't feel like sharing my life anymore. People do judge someone badly without even interact with that person. Being nice to people around you is always not enough. They don't see it they don't appreciate. They only judge. Judge till you can't breath. Judge till you wilt. Judge till the world ends.


Sharpen words, twisted truths. Vicious tongue and foolish ears.
You think you have asked something real. They think they have said something real.

You think you know how to love?

" All I require from you is a slither of a moment. To have you not by force, but simply as a man and a women. To see in your eye, that simple truth, that you give yourself to me freely. Not because you have to, but because you want to. Now of course, for such a gem, I will give as well. I'm willing to give you freedom. Pure and total freedom. Freedom from the drudgery of everyday life. Freedom as abstract ideal. Freedom from pain. Freedom from responsibility. Freedom from guilt. Freedom from regret. Freedom from sadness. Freedom from loss. The freedom to be happy. Don't close your eyes; I need you to look at me. The freedom to love. "








Quotes from the movie, Sucker Punch.
The most romantic and touching words a man could ever say to his girl.
You think you know what is love?
You think you know how to love?
This is it.
Love.