Coward

Sometimes I doubt that I deserve all these wonderful things I have now.
I mean, there are so much more people out there who work so much more harder, try so much harder.
And I'm just barely hanging there.
I'm such a coward pig.
I always try to escape from reality when things are not going on my way.
I have no guts facing it.
People like me doesn't deserve love.
I'm having the magical time of my life now but somehow I'm scared.
Cause I'm not good enough.
I scared that this is just a dream.
And I would wake up eventually and hit my head on the concrete.
I don't know what I can give to the people I love.
I just don't deserve it.
Never deserve it.



I feel so small in front of the people that actually have a dream, a future and a great love.

Life Still Go On And On And On And On!

Hi! I'm bored........ I refuse to study. Cause I have been study non-stop all day all night and that makes me feel lifeless. So......... I'm here now! Miss me not? :3

Heeeeee. So many things happened when I'm MIA in Blogger. It's impossible to update everything.... So I gonna tell you story with my instargram pitcha kay? mew mew! :3

ADP 2012 PROM- A Night In Manhattan

Dress & Earrings from Topshop.

It's a Lana Del Rey inspired look!

LOVE HER TTM!

At Redang.

Gosh I wanna go back the island.

No need to study, no need have test, no need do research, no need wake up early, no need go gym, no need diet.

Am so freaking stress recently.

Uni application ahhhhhhhhhhh urghhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

So many people wanna apply to OSU. Don't lah like that. Go aim higher CGPA uni lah walao. OHIO IS MINE. Ehhhhhhhhhh please lah let me in :( 

Hehe with little Smart! Took this pic when I last went home. About one month ago???? Wanna go home last weekend. But stupid me don't know that Saturday is first day of Puasa and went to the bus station quite late on Friday. After queuing for freaking 1 hour, no more ticket to Batu pahat, they said. I was so sien and decided to go back Sunway and by the time I stepped out the building, Plashhhhhhhhhhhh! It started raining. -.- So I ran ran ran to the taxi stand and the first 20 taxi-s I got ALL REFUSE TO GO SUNWAY and left me hanging there, in the rain. :(

I was so sien so frustrated, can't help but feeling that my life has been cursed by some witches. Finally a chinese taxi uncle willing to take me! Weeeeeeeeeeee! Bless you with infinity health and your taxi career pays off 100 times profits than the other assholes taxi driver!!!!!!! Oh and thanks Wong Wong for treating me Moo Cow! It really cheer me up! Heh! :D

Ciao! Miss me when I'm not here kay?

Lotsa love, vivian <3

Mama's Day!

Went all the way to Melacca for mother's day dinner with the family and popo.
Didn't take group pitcha! :(
But we had a very nice meal there!
Went to 北栈. Our favourite chinese restaurant in Melacca.

#1- Lamb Shank 

#2- Fried mee sua

#3- Homemade tofu with braised crab meat gravy

#4- Steamed Cod Fish

#5- veggie

#6- Seaweed soup

My present to mum!
Christian Dior limited edition makeup palette!
Only available in Airport Duty Free store!
:D

It was all yellow.

Hi.
Feel kinda relaxing today. Cause I realize what I thought that may be my fault is actually not my fault HAHAHAHAHAS. Was being emo nemo for the past few days and kept hitting Born To Die on replay. It's a beautiful song tho. Lana Del Rey is so pretty.

Eeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm bored actually. It's 4am now and I don't feel like sleeping. I am so excited to go back home tomorrow! Gonna manja with papa and mama and punch my brother as much as I can. Wheeeeeeeee~

I guess that's it. Good night:)


#I sometimes sympathize other people too much it makes me look like a fool. Feel like a fool. :)