See heaven got a plan for you

Hello.
Was reading others' emo blog posts just now and I feel like crying.
This is stupid, I know.
Oh well.
That's me.
I get influenced by other people easily. Either I'm close to them, or not.
I mean emotionally.
Whenever my friends crying in front of me, I feel like crying too.
It happens a few times.
It just broke my heart.
I hope that I'm the one getting hurt.

Having sucha big realization recently.
Everyone is lonely, at heart, I think.
I always try my best to not let people I care feel alone, I tell them I will be there when they need me, I never judge when they tell me their fucked up stories, cause I wanna be the one they feel comfortable to turn to.
I don't want people I love to feel that they are in a war all by their own.
Cause I know that sense of loneliness can shake even the strongest soul.
It comes to a point that I realize, what I do is not enough.
I fail to strike balance between everything I love.
It broke my heart to see my bestfriend cry that night.
It broke my heart to hold her in my arm, crying.
It's just,
whenever I need her, she will be there.
But when she needs me, I'm just not there.
I went through one of my depressing time with her holding my hand, firmly.
She means so much so much to me.
Without her, I'm nothing like seriously.
But then now, I just fail to be there for her.
And I know how much courage it take for her to finally say it to me.
Sayang you know,
I never mean to make you feel this way.
The last thing I ever want to do is letting anyone down.
But apparently I'm letting everyone down.
My used to be guy buddy don't want to even look at me now, I let my bestfriend go through all this shits alone.
I'm losing precious things.
I know.
But I gonna fight for them, even it's gonna be hard, it's gonna be long.
Cause this gonna be totally worth it.

Coward

Sometimes I doubt that I deserve all these wonderful things I have now.
I mean, there are so much more people out there who work so much more harder, try so much harder.
And I'm just barely hanging there.
I'm such a coward pig.
I always try to escape from reality when things are not going on my way.
I have no guts facing it.
People like me doesn't deserve love.
I'm having the magical time of my life now but somehow I'm scared.
Cause I'm not good enough.
I scared that this is just a dream.
And I would wake up eventually and hit my head on the concrete.
I don't know what I can give to the people I love.
I just don't deserve it.
Never deserve it.



I feel so small in front of the people that actually have a dream, a future and a great love.

Life Still Go On And On And On And On!

Hi! I'm bored........ I refuse to study. Cause I have been study non-stop all day all night and that makes me feel lifeless. So......... I'm here now! Miss me not? :3

Heeeeee. So many things happened when I'm MIA in Blogger. It's impossible to update everything.... So I gonna tell you story with my instargram pitcha kay? mew mew! :3

ADP 2012 PROM- A Night In Manhattan

Dress & Earrings from Topshop.

It's a Lana Del Rey inspired look!

LOVE HER TTM!

At Redang.

Gosh I wanna go back the island.

No need to study, no need have test, no need do research, no need wake up early, no need go gym, no need diet.

Am so freaking stress recently.

Uni application ahhhhhhhhhhh urghhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

So many people wanna apply to OSU. Don't lah like that. Go aim higher CGPA uni lah walao. OHIO IS MINE. Ehhhhhhhhhh please lah let me in :( 

Hehe with little Smart! Took this pic when I last went home. About one month ago???? Wanna go home last weekend. But stupid me don't know that Saturday is first day of Puasa and went to the bus station quite late on Friday. After queuing for freaking 1 hour, no more ticket to Batu pahat, they said. I was so sien and decided to go back Sunway and by the time I stepped out the building, Plashhhhhhhhhhhh! It started raining. -.- So I ran ran ran to the taxi stand and the first 20 taxi-s I got ALL REFUSE TO GO SUNWAY and left me hanging there, in the rain. :(

I was so sien so frustrated, can't help but feeling that my life has been cursed by some witches. Finally a chinese taxi uncle willing to take me! Weeeeeeeeeeee! Bless you with infinity health and your taxi career pays off 100 times profits than the other assholes taxi driver!!!!!!! Oh and thanks Wong Wong for treating me Moo Cow! It really cheer me up! Heh! :D

Ciao! Miss me when I'm not here kay?

Lotsa love, vivian <3

Mama's Day!

Went all the way to Melacca for mother's day dinner with the family and popo.
Didn't take group pitcha! :(
But we had a very nice meal there!
Went to 北栈. Our favourite chinese restaurant in Melacca.

#1- Lamb Shank 

#2- Fried mee sua

#3- Homemade tofu with braised crab meat gravy

#4- Steamed Cod Fish

#5- veggie

#6- Seaweed soup

My present to mum!
Christian Dior limited edition makeup palette!
Only available in Airport Duty Free store!
:D

It was all yellow.

Hi.
Feel kinda relaxing today. Cause I realize what I thought that may be my fault is actually not my fault HAHAHAHAHAS. Was being emo nemo for the past few days and kept hitting Born To Die on replay. It's a beautiful song tho. Lana Del Rey is so pretty.

Eeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm bored actually. It's 4am now and I don't feel like sleeping. I am so excited to go back home tomorrow! Gonna manja with papa and mama and punch my brother as much as I can. Wheeeeeeeee~

I guess that's it. Good night:)


#I sometimes sympathize other people too much it makes me look like a fool. Feel like a fool. :)

We Were Born To Die.

Feet don't fail me now
Take me to the finish line
All my heart, it breaks every step that I take
But I'm hoping that the gates,
They'll tell me that you're mine
Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design?
I feel so alone on a Friday night
Can you make it feel like home, if I tell you you're mine
It's like I told you honey

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

Lost but now I am found
I can see but once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Tried to take what I could get
Scared that I couldn't find
All the answers, honey

One more chance to hold you close

Let em talk, let em talk, let em talk, let em talk
Like we don’t hear what they saying
Let em walk, let em walk, let em walk, let em walk
We’ll just drive by and keep waving
Cause you and I above all that
Just let them wallow in it
Now they all choked up, yuck
Cause they be swallowing it


I don’t know, where you’re going
Or when you’re coming home
I left the keys under the mat to our front door
For one more chance to hold you close
I don’t know, where you’re going
Just get your ass back home

Truffles with the ADP Sweethearts

Hello.
Didn't hear from me for a long time? Well I'm still alive. Just that more low profile. HAHAHAHAHAS. No lah. Life has been hectic. Crazily hectic. And I'm in the midst of final exam. Just finished the first paper and bloody hell I'm actually in study room on a Friday's night so I decided to blog! :D

So 21 of us went to Truffles last Thursday! This was our very first visit to Truffles eventhough we were already here for one whole year. Truffles is a fine dining restaurant in Taylors' Lakeside which is served by Taylors' Culinary Arts and Hospitality students under supervision of professional lecture (well, I guess). It's only Rm10 for starter, main course and dessert. The menu is fixed and you may need to reserve the seats earlier at the Divisional Office of School of Taylors' Hospitality, Tourism and Culinary Arts(BlockD, Level2).

So here comes the pretty photossss taken by me hehehehehe. 8 of us using the photos here as profile picture already! *proud* :P

The chubby me :3

The blurry head sweetie pie MayGee

The always caring Roxanne :3

The snowflakes queen Adeline :3

The kind kind Tracy :3

The funny funny Max :3

The freshmen hunter CheeJen :3

The good husband WongWong :3

The stupid fella that revealed he won't be coming back on the last day of class CHI KOK ZHENG :3

The bull Boo :3

The A+ XingYao :3

The WhatTheFuck Beng :3

The youngest Matt :3

The clever clever Clement :3

The another Siow, Robin :3

The duo duo ye Jimmy :3

The one with new hairstyle Yue Hong

The one looks super handsome with this hairstyle Jason Yee. Eh please lah no more Justin Bieber's hair.

The lion Leon. Another one with new hairstyle.

The very flexible one Cheng Tzan :3

The Choki Choki ChoongKhai

Table #1

Table #2

Table #3

Table #4

Table #5

Mocktail of the day- The Pink Panther 

Bun.

Starter- Beef and Cheese Tart

Main Course: Fillet

Suckish dessert- Peach Swiss Roll

Instagram time!

Stupid fellas.

I said I looked like French girl with the beret. Max said:" French fries lah French girl!" -.-

The end.
Fun outing with the bunch. The foods was ok and too bad we were not allowed to join table. If not the whole Truffles sure noisy like Idk how to describe. ;)